Day 1 of my "lifestyle change"...

I say "lifestyle change" instead of "diet", because that's my goal with this. I don't want to be "on a diet", because diets die. I want to change my habits and become a new person.
On the downside, Day 1 didn't go so great..... Amanda, I know you're the only one reading this right now, so I will just go ahead and be honest. It sucked. It sucked big, hairy, disgusting cojones.
First, I skipped breakfast. The reason being that yesterday I had a bowl of oatmeal for breakfast, and it tasted terrible. So it kind of tainted my love for oatmeal..... but I need to get over it, and I will.
Then I skipped lunch. (!!!!) I know, red flag. I made a beautiful salad and took it with me to work, then I took it out of the fridge, set it on the table, and proceeded to stare at it the rest of the day.
Basically, after a long day of thinking about it, I've decided to become anorexic. Or at least this is what I started to become terrified of before I drove thru Taco Bell after work. (!!!!) Red Flag #2.
So what I ate today:

Some Hershey's Gold Nuggets
Nachos Bell Grande
and
A Rt 44 Coke from Sonic (because Sharla surprised me and brought it to me)

Bad, bad, bad, bad, bad day.

BUT.............. tomorrow is a new day.

What I seem to struggle with most is being lethargic and motionless during the day, and then by 9 or 10 o'clock at night I'm thinking "tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow I'll be better. Tomorrow I'll exercise. Tomorrow I'll watch my food."

Why can't I wake up in the a.m. feeling ready to change my life? Why does it happen so late in the evening? It really pisses me off.

So I've decided to start a food journal on here. I'm going to be logging everything I eat during the day. You can eat a bunch of shit all day and not even realize it until you've got it on a piece of paper staring at you. (Ah the diary of a fat girl..... that's a good title for my blog....)